It's just depressing. "This user has no friends yet" it says. No kidding. It only annoys me because it's true. Let me tell you about my last best friend.
We went to school together for a while, so that's where we met. She was the new girl and didn't know anyone, and I guess I looked friendly, because she started hanging out with me. Long story short, we ended up being best friends. We would go to the cinema together, recommend books to each other, watch "Prisonbreak" and "CSI" at each other's place. Boring stuff we both liked to do.
Like the depressed individual I am, I sometimes expressed my concerns about the meaning of life and death. I mean, that's what you're supposed to do with your best friend, isn't it? Share everything? During the last year, with the pressure of the upcoming exams piling up, I got bluer and bluer. So what does she decide to do?
Around Christmas, she says she wants to tell me her BIG secret. I say spill it. She says when she was about ten a friend of her (a girl friend, that is) mollested her. And that she now thought she might be bysexual (my friend, I mean. Not the other girl). I say, ok. Who cares? I'm open minded. I cried at the end of "Brokeback Mountain". And we're still good.
A month after that, she starts telling me she's in love with someone smarter than her, with a really beautiful name, and a girl. When I try harder for her to tell me her name, I get stonewalled. I say fine. And keep talking about my crush on a guy with an IQ of 147 and a girlfriend.
A couple of weeks after that, she comes by my house, crying, saying she's in love with me. Please don't judge me, but I felt sick. I sent her a message the next day to tell her that I didn't want to be her friend anymore. She came by a week later to talk to me.
She said that I might not believe her, but she had been lying. She was not bysexual. She was not in love with me. She said: "Don't take me wrong, but even if I were "by", I would fall for someone prettier".
I asked her why she lied. She said it was driving her crazy to see me so desperate and so close to a melt down. She said she wanted to give me a reason to refrain from hanging myself from the ceiling (I so wouldnt do that-I have prescription pills). The only thing she could think of(she said) was to pretend she was so in love with me, she would kill herself in case I commited suicide.
Haven't seen her since.
So, maybe having zero friends isn't as bad as having one psychotic one.
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- 2007-06-02 @ 00:18:07
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- 2007-06-02 @ 00:39:17
Ok, that's strange... She had the wrong idea about 'trying to help'.
But I think it's important to have at least one person you can turn to... Someone who'll just sit and listen and doesn't try something that ridiculous to 'help'. But you'll be fine.
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- 2007-06-02 @ 00:58:17
Thank you, I certainly hope so.
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- 2007-07-10 @ 23:21:15
How weird your friend was. With help like that I'm not sure you needed her. Friends choose the oddest moments to become bitches. My so called (ex) best friend decided she would flip out 3 months before my wedding, where she was supposed to be my bridesmaid and help me with everything. It made me stronger and I am sure you have learnt from your 'friend' too.
take care
x
badhairdaysmakeyoustronger
Looking back, I think I can't have been so much smarter than her. I mean, I missed all the signs. Her favourite song was "My friends" by RHCP. Which starts with: "My friends are so depressed...". I mean, HELLO, she was trying to make a point. Whatever.
I don't think I could have handled the drama.